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AMy Pond
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2nd Day With My Dad Being...Gone and Dead from this world
AMy Pond
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My father passed away at the young age of 51 yesterday morning at Ebeid Hospice around 7:20/7:21am...it wasn't really him in the end. Just a body, a vessel, a submarine, a carrier. Everything that made him HIM was gone I think Saturday night, although he struggled to stay with us during Monday night.

He was so frustrated with having a raspy voice from the respirator tube being lodge in his throat for 3 weeks. From Tuesday Nov 8 - Sat Nov 26. Four days later he just gave up and gave into the infection the chemotherapy for NHL caused.

Hard to think I'll never hear his laughter or be able to roll my eyes from him just yabbering away about things he was so happy and passionate about. I feel horrible trying to turn my attention to focus so much on my training. I wanted to get back in shape for the cage, for a Judo black belt testing later this month. And I know he understood my desires and he encourages me all the time...

We started seeing each other nearly everyday recently. Driving around together. Singing off key to the music on the radio.

His main love was Star Trek. Comics from the golden, silver, and bronze age. He always tries to educate me on the eras and the names of all the comic book artists, artists that did work for pulp books/magazines like Doc Savage....

He loves Andy Griffith, Bewitch, I Dream of Jeanie, Gomer Pyle, Three Stogges...

His music interests varied from Frank Sinatra, The Rat Pack, to Beatles, The Archies, The Monkees, Dean Martin, Elvis, some old country and bluegrass...

He loved Kung Fu and Kung Fu: The Legend Continues.

He loved vampire shows like Forever Knight, Moonlight, Kindred the Embrace.

Enjoyed the quirks of Dead Like Me.

Him and I used to watch Family Guy before I moved out to start my life as a young lady adult.

He loved the Avengers. Emma Peel (Diana Rigg) and Steed... Cathy Gale (Honor Blackman) and Steed.

Absolutely loved Doctor Who from the beginning unlike me that jumped on the reboot wagon starting with the 9th Doctor.

I know he appreciate all the various doctors, but I'm pretty sure his favorite was the 4th Doctor, Tom Baker. Because maybe it was mainly he was the longest doctor and during my dad's mainstream period as a young teen/teenager.

He loved Eastern Philosophy and Medicine.

Loved Jerry Lewis. Andy Kaufman. Red Skeleton.

So many interests. So much knowledge about computers to the finer details of actors from one genre crossing over to another.

Favorite season I'm 99% was Christmas. The lights. The fresh snowfall. Christmas Trees. Decorations. Christmas cartoons, shows, movies.

He never really grew up. He WAS the biggest kid residing in a 51 year old man's body.

The last song him and I danced to was "Unforgettable" by Nat King Cole at my wedding, 2.14.10

Then his stupid shoe lace came undone and he slipped and took out the table. He was so embarrassed and I was so worried that he hurt himself. But he came back up and we finished our father and daughter dance. We still talked about it quite often.

Talked about him and I getting stranded SEVERAL times in the Monroe/Sylvania district around or days before Christmas shopping around for gifts for mom.

This past May 2011, he thought he'd lost his daughter of fandom, that I had grown up. And he was so happy that he hadn't, that *I* hadn't, lost my passion or appreciation for various fandom. We became closer throughout the recent years.

We weren't always a perfect, Leave It to Beaver family, but that's what made us...well. Us.

We grew together and apart then together, always for the strong, with each stroke of the time.

I can sit here and think what if this, what if that, but what if despite everything was changed, that it would STILL boil down to this. To me and my mom stating December 1st, 2011 off without him. Her without a husband. Me without a dad.

This laptop that I'm typing on now was bought by him and my mom. My dad was kinda staring at him and shook his head when the last laptop donated by them kinda ended on the floor on its case lid--whoops--but he told me he'd try to figure it out. That very night I received this one.

He told me to shut up and just thank him for being an awesome dad. and he did that Matt Smith/11th Doctor thing, "WHO DA MAN?!" in the car... :)

He was only 51. I'm only 23.

It's not fair. Doesn't make sense. Never thought I'd feel this pain until YEARS later. Like, when I was in my 50s or 60s, when we'd be arguing over who would use the buckeye senior citizen discount card.

No one's laughter is quite as loud and filled with life as his.

I remember him and the gaming group. People go and come. Agroy wizard character. Leon.

My mind's just wheeling....so...unreal.

Love you dad. Ronald Lerue Wilcoxen.

June 23, 1960-November 30, 2011.

The baby that survived stupid ass birth parents from El Pase, Texas to make it all the way back to the safety of your grandparents in Belpre, Ohio who took you in as their own son, and you didn't care that they were 'grandparents', they were mom and dad. They were love. They were safety. Your sanctum. Your heart.

You never were ever useless or to be put in the corner. We were just a dysfunctional, loving family.

Glad that you were able to say my name, hear my and mom's voice, on your final coherent day.

I hope God allows a sign sometime to let me know you're safe on your next journey, that you know I miss you and love you, that you are still here with me watching over as my dad.

We will meet again, somehow, someway, I promise, pops.

Needs Help of COPLAYERS!!!
AMy Pond
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I want to construct a Harley Quinn costume, but adapt it to cagefighting apparel. I do NOT want to go the new video game costume theme-- the original black/white with diamonds outfit. Now, obviously I can't wear makeup and I'm a red head, but I think I can get away with this with adapting it to leggings and a bra? Or maybe leggings and long sleeve underarmor?

Opinions?

Would like to construct prior to September 18.

11th Doctor - Matt Smith's 1st season
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
WOW

WOW

WOW

I didn't think this could have held up to Ten's series....or even make me excited like True Blood does. Did.

OMG. I love Amy. She is BRILLANT. And her and Matt have like the greatest chemistry everrrr. I feel like my 18 year old fangirl self again!!! I loved Rose to the point RTD made her character lose herself with Ten, to the point he wrote just for fangirls, without the excitement (come on, he gave Rose a copy!Ten? Really, Rose?)

But I am FEELING Amy/11's romance. It's grown on me, it wasn't FORCED on me. That's what I loved so much about 9/Rose. They went through horrible stuff together. 9 was Rose's life line and the one person who she could really go to for things. She basically died for The Doctor, much like Amy would at any point! Then RTD seemed to force 10/Rose on us after David Tennant's first episode in the Christmas special.

I love David T's Ten. It was classic. But towards the end, it became a bit too much. I'm not blaming the actor, because I've seen his various roles in Casonova (uhhaa) and another series where he played basically an evil, cweepy, stalker, killer dude. So, with that, I LOVE Ten. I embraced him after a while.

11? Matt Smith? From the get go I was hooked. I think I was excited from the regeneration scene.

Oh, my lord, and Amy. Amy Pond. Amelia Pond ("Amelia was a nice name!"). From episode 1 of not turning away from seeing the doctor's goodies, through the last episode of Matt Smith's 1st season, she was brilliant. I didn't want to murder her like I did Rose after a while (although I cried my EYES OUT and thought I was going to have Buffy/Angel flashbacks when Buffy had to kill Angel at the end of season 2 because of Spike and Dru when Rose was swallowed up in the closed off world!! THAT KILLED ME)

And that better not happen with Amy. I really, really hope Amy will become the next famous companion like Sarah Jane. My parents love SJ above all others, from what I gather. But Amy won my heart. Right now, from the "new who", I think I'm gonna rank my companions:

Amy
Rose
Martha
Donna
River Song (ew, please tell me she was lying about marrying the doctor. He could do SOOO much better!!)

I'm thinking I need to rewatch these over and over again. I loved how adventurous it was. And just. OYY.

"What do normal blokes wear?"
"The bowtie? Lose it!"
"Bowties are cool"

"No fez. I could always buy one"

I heard Matt Smith wanted the Fez to be incorporated as part of the costume!! OMG!! Hahahhaah. I wonder if Ten would like the new bowtie or shake his head at it?

VOTE FOR ME AS AMATEUR FIGHTER OF THE YEAR!! WILL TAKE LESS THAN 5 SECONDS!!!
Elektra - Gi
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Cast your vote now for the 2010 GFIGHT awards. Nominees include AMANDA WILCOXEN!!!

Please show your support! http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/N69NHCS

I'm up against some good gals. SHOW YOUR SUPPORT OF THE PALE FIGHTER GUYS!!! PLEASE SHARE!!!

Me on SportsGeek Radio!!!!
Elektra - Gi
gweneth_syeira
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/bsrlounge/2009/12/10/sportsgeeks-featuring-amanda-wilcoxen

Check it out!! Very cool! My voice sounds sexaaaaaaaaaaayyyyy.

I talk on a radio show out of New York. Talk about weight-cutting, my upcoming fight tonight, past fights, sci-fi, being a geek, and other good stuff!!! Listen!!!
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PLEASE TAKE SURVEY
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Hey all. I have to do this survey research thing for my composition class. Please help me out and take it? Shouldn't take more than 5-10min at max. Please help me, I'd really appreciate it. I have to have a minimum of 50 people taking it. No one will be used when you take it.

Thanks!!

http://www.kwiksurveys.com/online-survey.php?surveyID=LKEOG_fe3c55bb

Amanda Wilcoxen
amanda.wilcoxen@rockets.utoledo.edu

(I'm spamming everything, lmao)

Writer's Block: Seven
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Which of the seven deadly sins—sloth, greed, lust, gluttony, anger, envy, and pride—are you most likely to commit?


Gluttony, envy, anger, pride, lust, greed, and sloth would probably be the order of what I'd be most likely to commit in order--lol. I'm a disgusting person, I know. Meh.

Writer's Block: Doctor Who?
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
26-year-old actor Matt Smith was anointed as the eleventh Doctor Who this week. If you were in charge of casting, who would you cast as your ideal Doctor and why?


Edward Norton as a younger and Anthony Hopkins or Gary Oldman as an older. If Richard Harris was still alive, I think he'd be a sweet ass Doctor.

Gary Oldman could be really quirky for the role and bring some good leveled seriousness to the role. Anthony Hopkins, well, obviously with class and the way his acting can go from serious psychopathic killer to comic to good level. I really LOVED his portrayal in the Mask of Zorro.

Edward Norton would make a great one, especially for those girls that just watch the show to get their fangirl and for looks. He has a great sense of humor from Death to Smoochy.

I think Richard E. Grant would make another good one from his portrayal in the Warlock. Speaking of which.....Julian Sands? FUCK YES.

****KEYLOGGER WARNING****LJ VIRUS FROM FUCKING RUSSIAN BOTS
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Ummmmmmmm..........

So yeah. I may have been compromised. By fucking Russian Bots. So if anything weird happens to my journal for any reason, you have a heads up.

http://lazywriterbum.livejournal.com/101111.html

Some information:
http://copperbadge.livejournal.com/1787663.html?view=41494543#t41494543

In comments section:
http://community.livejournal.com/bad_sex/3772448.html?thread=82322720#t82322720


Man if i fucking lose my journal entries I'm gonna be heated.

Grrr

Journal Layout Update, profile changes, grades...
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Decided it was time to change from my typical emo-dreaded drenched themes. Wewt. I like it--what do you guys think?

On my anatomy test, I didn't score a high grade as I was hoping, but I think that's because of my neglect for CH3. :( But I DID pass! WOOT. It was a C on the nose, but man. It's better than my 43%, 12%, 56%, etc that I'd received in earlier times. I even texted kaladhwen about it, because yeah, I was disappointed in myself, but now I know what I need to work on. And I'll get that A on the next exam. Instead of 75%, it'll be 92, 95%.

Think we're gonna go food shopping today. There's like...only condiments in the fridge. And ahhhhhhh. At Savers I found this "happy bday, Buggs" drinking glass. My parents had one like this that I always used as a child with those Disney cups that Burger King (or was it McFondles?) handed out in the day. He bought it for me and a Lions glass for himself. He wanted to shop for clothes so yeah. Hmm.

Life is going good. Was really stressful at the beginning of this week but it's not ending too shabby. ^_^

Guess that's it for now. Time to study.

Before Bed and Work......
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Is anyone else excited about Dr. Who for tomorrow?

EEEEEeeeeeeeeeee.

And I won't have another day off until next Thursday.

Six. Straight. Days. Of. Fucked. Up. Work.

Damn it. All. To. Hell.

[[Meme]]
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
You Are A Pine Tree

You love agreeable company, peace, and harmony.
Compassionate and friendly, you love to help others.
A natural poet, you have a very active imagination.
You are very soft on the inside - needing affection and reassurance.
You can fall in love deeply, but you will leave if you feel betrayed.


You Should Be a Film Writer

You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind.
You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life.
Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling.
And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!


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[[Friends Cut]] Public Entry
AMy Pond
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Okay. So, I was going through, making a new filter, yadda yadda. Saw that somehow I reached up to like 65 people as my friends (well, 64 without my dumbass self friended). I basically cut you if:

[a] You haven't updated within the past 6mo-year(s)
[b] You haven't really commented on any of my entries, haven't friended me back within a 3-6mo period time frame, or basically removed me from your own friend's list.
[c] You been a jerkface so I'm retaliating the only way my third grade mind knows how to, lol.
[d] We just didn't click, sorry
[e] You might've been cut on accident, if so, just apply again.

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Again, if I've added you to a certain filter on accident/you feel uncomfortable with the subject material, just lemme know politely.

Schweeters.

[[Meme]] Yeah. Another one. Going public! (get to know the amazing thing called me)
AMy Pond
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Part Dos; SurroundingsCollapse )

Pt 3: Ambitions & CareersCollapse )

Pt IV: Me, Friends, HobbiesCollapse )

Pt 5: Sex, Love, Relationships. Oh boy.Collapse )

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WTFH?!?!?!??!?!
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Saw this from vaginapagina

http://www.news.com.au/story/0,23599,21969117-2,00.html
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/6237480.stm

Apparently, it's okay to rape girls that appear to be 16?

Okay. I agree ten year olds should not be wearing thongs or frilly bras, but that is NO grounds for dismissing the guy that fucking raped and molested her!! Apparently this fucking cunt ass judge has no fucking idea on how it feels to be invaded against your will. It's a horrifying experience by anything.

Just...wtf is Mother England thinking?

SERIOUSLY?!
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[[Meme]] 84% Stupid (if I multiplied right, lmao)
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
grabbed from kahvi_musta

Stupidity Test

Tally up your number of x's. Multiply that number by 3 to get your
percentage.


1. [x] I have walked into a glass/screen door.
2. [x] I have tripped on my shoelace and fallen.
3. [x] I have choked on my own spit.
4. [x] I've seen the Matrix a bunch of times and still don't get it.
5. [ ] I type only with my pointer fingers.
6. [x] I have accidentally caught something on fire.
7. [ ] I've told a cop to buzz off and gotten screwed for it.
8. [x] I have attempted to sip out of a straw but it accidentally went into my nose, rather than my mouth.
9. [x] I have thought of something funny, and laughed out loud and people looked at me weird.
10. [x] I've caught myself drooling.
11. [x] I've accidentally caused an explosion.
12. [x] If someone says the word "fart", I can't help but laugh.
13. [ ] I've been into a "Do Not Enter" one way road plenty of times.
14. [x] Sometimes I just...stop thinking & zone out.
15. [x] It is POSSIBLE to lick your elbow.
16. [x] I just tried to lick my elbow.
17. [x] People often shake their heads and walk away from me.
18. [x] People often tell me to use my "inside voice".
19. [x] Gum has fallen out of my mouth while talking. (this just happened yesterday in jujitsu! lmao...caught it on the guy's shirt before he knew it)
20. [x] I use my fingers to do simple math.
21. [x] I've jumped off a moving vehicle.
22. [x] I ate a bug for $5 or less.
23. [x] I'm taking this test when I should be doing something more important.
24. [x] I repost chain letters because I'm scared of what they threaten will happen if I don't.
25. [ ] I've licked a metal pole.
26. [x] I've ran around naked when I was with friends. (oy. let's just leave it at that)
27. [x] I've searched all over the place for something, and then realized it was in my hand the whole time.
28. [x] I accidentally break a lot of things.
29. [ ] My friends know not to use big words on me.
30. [x] I put my head to the side when I'm confused.
31. [x] Sometimes I start telling a story and suddenly forget what I'm talking about.
32. [x] I've fallen out of my chair before. (yes, I have... f* that was funny)
33. [x] When I'm laying in bed, I sometimes stare at the ceiling and try to find pictures and words in the texture.
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So. Let's talk some Hell and Suicide.
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
**Unlocked Entry**


This perked my interests: "Please don't believe the hell myth. It is a terrible fiction created by the church that has been attributed to Yeshua. In the myth, Yeshua is portrayed as a tyrant who requires that people swear allegiance to him or he will lock them into a place of unrelenting, agonizing torment for eternity. That is not the Yeshua who speaks of love, compassion, judging not, and forgiving in the New Testament. Yeshua doesn't mention such a place and certainly never threatened anyone if they chose not to grow spiritually by following his teaching. There is no word for such a place in Aramaic, Greek, or Hebrew. It just didn't exist." ~ http://30ce.com/jesusonhell.htm

I'm just curious. It doesn't matter what religion you are/aren't, but I want people's opinions on the afterlife. Mostly, do you think there's life on the other side? Do you think those that commit suicide go to Hell? What is their fate?

I mean. I seriously doubt that people who commit suicide would be damned forever in Hell. Because of how many religions there are, and I'm pretty sure Christianity is relatively new compared to other religions (Greek, Roman, etc.) I could be wrong, but I'm gonna research this and any input would be much obliged. But I'm just thinking of all the samurai that would commit seppku, kamikazes, those that have killed themselves for the sake of their country to not give out any information, for their family. To end their own misery.

I'm really curious about this. Because it would suck that suicide stars, as Alice Cooper sings, would be forever stuck in that. And people with life/death experiences where they've been legally dead always have different stories to tell/say.

I'm gonna post this to several communities that I'm part of and would greatly appreciate any insight(s). If you want to fill me in a little of your religion (or personal belief if you're not religious/spiritual/agnostic, etc) that "backs up" your belief/theory, please include that. I've always been interested in theology and would love to learn anything more I can.

If this isn't clear, just comment and I'll try to clear this up.

[[Lyrics]] Answer - Blue October. (The song of my life)
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Lookie! A public entry!

And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”

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AMEN!
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Uncle sent this to me, I love this (and PLEASE spare me the urban legend looking up to check the story out, just f'ing enjoy it):

The following was written by Ben Stein and recited by him on CBS Sunday Morning Commentary, Sunday, 12/18/05.

Herewith at this happy time of year, a few confessions from my beating heart: I have no freaking clue who Nick and Jessica are. I see them on the cover of People and Us constantly when I am buying my dog biscuits and kitty litter. I often ask the checkers at the grocery stores. They never know who Nick and Jessica are either. Who are they? Will it change my life if I know who they are and why they have broken up? Why are they so important?

I don't know who Lindsay Lohan is either, and I do not care at all about Tom Cruise's wife.
Am I going to be called before a Senate committee and asked if I am a subversive? Maybe, but I just have no clue who Nick and Jessica are.

If this is what it means to be no longer young. It's not so bad.

Next confession:
I am a Jew, and every single one of my ancestors was Jewish. And it does not bother me even a little bit when people call those beautiful lit up, bejeweled trees Christmas trees. I don't feel threatened. I don't feel discriminated against. That's what they are: Christmas trees.

It doesn't bother me a bit when people say, "Merry Christmas" to me. I don't think they are slighting me or getting ready to put me in a ghetto. In fact, I kind of like it. It shows that we are all brothers and sisters celebrating this happy time of year. It doesn't bother me at all that there is a manger scene on display at a key intersection near my beach house in Malibu. If people want a creche, it's just as fine with me as is the Menorah a few hundred yards away.

I don't like getting pushed around for being a Jew, and I don't think Christians like getting pushed around for being Christians. I think people who believe in God are sick and tired of getting pushed around, period. I have no idea where the concept came from that America is an explicitly atheist country. I can't find it in the Constitution, and I don't like it being shoved down my throat.

Or maybe I can put it another way: where did the idea come from that we should worship Nick and Jessica and we aren't allowed to worship God as we understand Him?

I guess that's a sign that I'm getting old, too.

But there are a lot of us who are wondering where Nick and Jessica came from and where the America we knew went to.


In light of the many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke, it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking.


Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane Clayson asked her "How could God let something like this Happen?" (regarding Katrina)

Anne Graham gave an extremely profound and insightful response. She said, "I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our government and to get out of our lives.

And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?"

In light of recent events...terrorists attack, school shootings, etc. I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered, her body found recently) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools, and we said OK.

Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school . the Bible says thou shalt not kill, thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbor as yourself. And we said OK.

Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they misbehave because their little personalities would be warped and we might damage their self-esteem (Dr. Spock's son committed suicide). We said an expert should know what he's talking about. And we said OK.

Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no conscience, why they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to kill strangers, their classmates, and themselves.

Probably, if we think about it long and hard enough, we can figure it out. I think it has a great deal to do with "WE REAP WHAT WE SOW."

Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.
Funny how we believe what! the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says.

Funny how you can send 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing.

Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene articles pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion of God is suppressed in the school and workplace.

Are you laughing?

Funny how when you forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it.

Funny how we can be more worried about what other people think of us than what God thinks of us.
Pass it on if you think it has merit. If not then just discard it... no one will know you did. But, if you discard this thought process, don't sit back and complain about what bad shape the world is in.

FList Updated + Profile
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Yeah. So. It's one of those messages.

Cleaned out flist again in a year or two. If I took you off and you want to stay friended, just reply here. And um. Yeah....

Fuck You Speech Returns. And Yes, This Is Meant To Be Unprotected.
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
I don't usually get this pissy over insignificant beings and pests...but considering y'all manage to make my mom sick, it's time to pull out my Fuck You speech once more. And reading over this again, I realize you guys are the SAME pieces of trash I see EVERYDAY downtown.

And yes, if you think this is in regards to you, you are certainly right. And please, please, go on and cry and whine to your fake and phony friends and cry yourself a river. Talk about how suicidal you are and just how pathetic and weak of a being you are. It'll be amusing.

Don't fuck with my mom--I don't see how or WHY she lets things like you in so close to her defenses, but I just guess she still has hope and a heart where I don't.

Without further ado....

Monty Brogan [25th Hour]:

Fuck me? Fuck you!

Fuck you and this whole city and everyone in it.

Fuck the panhandlers, grubbing for money, and smiling at me behind my back.

Fuck the squeegee men dirtying up the clean windshield of my car. Get a fucking job!

Fuck the Sikhs and the Pakistanis bombing down the avenues in decrepit cabs, curry steaming out their pores, stinking up my day. Terrorists in fucking training. SLOW THE FUCK DOWN!

Fuck the Chelsea boys with their waxed chests and pumped up biceps. Going down on each other in my parks and on my piers, jingling their dicks on my Channel 35.

Fuck the Korean grocers with their pyramids of overpriced fruit and their tulips and roses wrapped in plastic. Ten years in the country, still no speaky English?

Fuck the Russians in Brighton Beach. Mobster thugs sitting in cafés, sipping tea in little glasses, sugar cubes between their teeth. Wheelin' and dealin' and schemin'. Go back where you fucking came from!

Fuck the black-hatted Hasidim, strolling up and down 47th street in their dirty gabardine with their dandruff. Selling South African apartheid diamonds!

Fuck the Wall Street brokers. Self-styled masters of the universe. Michael Douglas, Gordon Gecko wannabe mother fuckers, figuring out new ways to rob hard working people blind. Send those Enron assholes to jail for FUCKING LIFE! You think Bush and Cheney didn't know about that shit? Give me a fucking break! Tyco! Worldcom!

Fuck the Puerto Ricans. 20 to a car, swelling up the welfare rolls, worst fuckin' parade in the city. And don't even get me started on the Dom-in-i-cans, 'cause they make the Puerto Ricans look good.

Fuck the Bensonhurst Italians with their pomaded hair, their nylon warm-up suits, their St. Anthony medallions, swinging their, Jason Giambi, Louisville slugger, baseball bats, trying to audition for the Sopranos.

Fuck the Upper East Side wives with their Hermes scarves and their fifty-dollar Balducci artichokes. Overfed faces getting pulled and lifted and stretched, all taut and shiny. You're not fooling anybody, sweetheart!

Fuck the uptown brothers. They never pass the ball, they don't want to play defense, they take fives steps on every lay-up to the hoop. And then they want to turn around and blame everything on the white man. Slavery ended one hundred and thirty seven years ago. Move the fuck on!

Fuck the corrupt cops with their anus violating plungers and their 41 shots, standing behind a blue wall of silence. You betray our trust!

Fuck the priests who put their hands down some innocent child's pants. Fuck the church that protects them, delivering us into evil. And while you're at it, fuck JC! He got off easy! A day on the cross, a weekend in hell, and all the hallelujahs of the legioned angels for eternity! Try seven years in fuckin' Otisville, J!

Fuck Osama Bin Laden, Al Qaeda, and backward-ass, cave-dwelling, fundamentalist assholes everywhere. On the names of innocent thousands murdered, I pray you spend the rest of eternity with your seventy-two whores roasting in a jet-fueled fire in hell.

You towel headed camel jockeys can kiss my royal Irish ass!



/evil biotch rant

What's Really Hilarious About "Humans", Since It's the Choice Phrase Of Da Week
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Is that they get pissed at what they can't read and be nosy about.

Yeah, it's an online journal thing. It's addictive. It's also frecking queer if you get yourself so worked up over something so remedally stupid such as being friended or unfriended. For crimminy sakes, stop your moaning and PMSing. Is it your LJ username, account? Did you make up the username(s)? No? Then get. The. Hell. Over. It. For. Once.

I don't know about you, but some things I like to keep "secret", which is odd since we're posting such things online, but you know, friends or not, suck ups or not, whatever you may or may not be, it's not THAT damned serious. I don't get worked up when Sheryl and Bailee write notes back and forth and they won't let me see them (esp. when I KNOW they're talking about me, good or bad), or tons of other people. Yeah, it somewhat bothers me when I actually bother to give it thought, but that's what I'm talking about. If they felt that it was that important that the whole fucking world should know about, I'm sure you'd know.

Give off their grill and meat. Slowly people all around me are becoming more and more like these damned Arabic neighbours that suffocate me here and hate me/us because we're Americans. Uh, hello people. Free country. Free service. If the options weren't there for friends/private/customized options for the USER'S choice, then WHY THE HELL ARE THEY THERE, HMM??!!

Geeze. Get a life and stop being so damned critical. You only live once, don't waste it on such pettiness.

And *GASP*, I'm making this public for reasons that are beyond me.

Maybe it's to prove I can do whatever I wish with MY journal, hmm?

That's It. Flaming Post. You're Warned.
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Know what? You people, you know who you are, can all go screw yourselves. And yes, take this as a flame, a bash, whatever you wish. I am the big bag wolf. I can't help it, it's in my blood and nature and I can only bend so far back, as it seems to be teh popular phrase, and take things back before I regret them and grow distasteful of myself.

I don't take kindly to threats especially from the kind of person you are. You aren't who or what I thought you to be. Yeah, it's sad, but true. The world doesn't revolve around you. I know it's shocking, but it's the truth.

I'm tired of people I care about coming to me or commenting to me on how you people treat them like they're children or basic children. And what in THE hell is up with frowning at hearing my mother coming home? And then commenting on whether I was doing homework or not. Yeah, I was doing homework because unlike you guys, I'm going somewhere with my future. I won't be so jacked into my computer drinking myself into depression or getting whatever it is you guys get 24/7. I love writing, love RPing; a lot of people can testify to that. But it isn't my freaking life! I am A-m-a-n-d-a-. Not V, not Kara. I'm gonna have a life. Hey! Wait, it's too late for that, I already have a life!

Why must you piss on people IC and OOC? And yeah, so stew and complain about this post all you freaking want. I can really careless about what you guys think of me because you guys never really did notice me when for some reason I did try and attempt to get into the scene and be social. But then I was introduced to the real world, so to speak. With "real" people.

Start how many groups you want. I don't care. But when you start treating MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS you piss me off. That is why roaring bitch here is showing somewhat.

And you know what else? I'm sick and fucking tired of how you guys treat my mom. Yeah. I'm sorry, but it's true. You push her out of everything.

You want canon? You guys that seriously perfected on that canon crap? Okay. Fine. Where does some of these family lines power come from? Why are they SOOOO powerful than the few book character that are still in play?

I see what you guys do to her, to others that keep quiet because they wanna be in on the clique and be part of the big dogs. But it sickens me. You guys sicken me. She is like the last person among you popular things that are still willing to try to reach out to people that don't see that much action (and no, I'm not talking about myself). And for some reason I can fathom, she considers you guys her closest friends. It seems all she gets in return is slap in the face or that she's always bending to make you guys happy.

And yeah, she can't be online 24/7 because the woman works for two selfish people that live with her and she transports their lily pink butts to and fro everywhere. Apparently, it hurts when her friends ignore her because she isn't on everyone's meat like so many others are.

Oh, there's a thought! Talk about bending over backwards. Yeah, other people do it, but they don't always make a big freaking issue out of it. Why don't they? I don't why. Maybe because they can't take it anymore. Maybe they've had too much of it with their own personal problems. Everyone has a reason. And yeah, I may be peanut gallery, but it pisses me off to hear such heart ache from supposedly good people that are so freaking righteous.

Start spending more time with your family and loved ones more often.

When people meet, you're there to talk. Not to do show and tell with laptops and make people that don't have laptops feel inferior.

This is going to be, hopefully, the last thing that I bring up on this issue. Because after today or this week, it'll be all history to me. That's all everything else is.

And don't worry, I get all the drop hints. I move onto something else.
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more quizzes. yay
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
they just keep on coming!

Night
You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like Diamonds in the Rough.


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Xuan Wu ~ Turtle
You are Xuan Wu!

Mythological background: Because the turtle has a
thick, solid shell that serves as protection -
this animal is associated with stability. You
enjoy intellectual pursuits.
Also, in Feng Shui (the Chinese myths behind
choosing a house), the black turtle's solidity
is used to protect from cold northern winds.


Which Chinese Mythological Being Are You?
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Bondage Bear
Bondage Bear


Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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Hmm. Decided to take this one again. Took it awhile ago. Used to be pure black....I've moved up on the colour chain *gasp*

Info Grey
Your Heart is Grey


What Color is Your Heart?
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Leo
You should be dating a Leo.
23 July - 22 August
This mate is honest and loyal, with a sunny
disposition. Though this lion has the tendency
to be arrogant, sulky or smug, he/she is
unrestrained in bed.


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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Moon Secrets
You are the Secretive Mermaid. Perpetual beauty
that longs for legs to walk by the side of men.
You spend your time gazing at the stars and
whispering to the moon. You have little to no
freinds that breathe. Your freinds all missing.
You are sweet as syryp and kind as cake. There
are a handful of people and mermaids like you.
Would you rate my quiz I will keep it a secret?


What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics)
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apathy
Apathy, well I can say your lucky, in some ways.
You see Apathy is no emotion, basically you
don't care. But that does not make you a bad
person. Some of my friends are apathetic and I
love them, but it wouldn't hurt to care a
little more. Trust me life hurts, most people
who are apathetic do it cause they were hurt.
But don't worry, life is pain, its also
pleasure. Good luck. (please vote)


What Emotion Dominates you?
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DesireLove
Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't
been in much relationships or you need to work
on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
a daydream about the person you care about
most.

PLEASE RATE


What Do You Truly Desire? *PICS*
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HASH(0x88d1cf0)
Your soul is DARK. You aren't too happy with your
life, though you may feel you should be. You're
probably solitary, pessimistic, brooding,
possibly nocturnal, but mostly a general
unknown. You might have a hidden liking for
pain and destruction, but you're probably more
masochistic that sadistic if that's true. (look
it up if you don't know what they mean!) Those
that think they know you tend to place you
closer to evil on a scale of good and evil,
which might not be true. What people see may
not be who you actually are. Some people fear
you and others mock you. What isn't really
known, though, is that you're not pure evil.
You're just a mysterious, misunderstood - and
sadly, forsaken - soul.


What Is Your Soul's Trait?
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Yay... quizzes before class
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
The Night Elf
You are a Night Elf. You walk amoung the shadows
and are known to be very stealthy, Your weapon
is very powerful and you are very
secretive.People should watch out for a night
elf. . . . never know when they will appear
from the shadows and attack or even scare you.
You always fight on and never give up just like
the Woodland elf but you fight till death
itself


Are you a Woodland Elf, Night Elf or Dark Elf
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HASH(0x88b99cc)
You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what
that can always mean, because it can be defined
in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were
the spirits of passed away people who are
neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the
earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing
when you expect it least. So hence, if you have
a Lost Soul, then you are probably very
insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,
you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont
know your place. You seemingly dont have a
place in society or an interest. You are a very
capricious person, and are confused and
frustrated about where you belong. You crave
for the sense and feeling of home-but have not
obtained it yet.


What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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Hmm. A'righty...
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Insular Majuscule
Insular Majuscule- You are spiritual and well
rounded. People look to you for advice, but
sometimes find you difficult to understand.


What Calligraphy Hand Are You?
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(no subject)
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
If only that gun would work when you want it to.
Over the stars....suicidal huh?


What JTHM moment are you?
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mm...quizzes
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
stole from kaladhwen

Black
You are Black.

Boasting of Power and mystery, you make for an
interesting person. But careful, you may scare
off any potential freinds with your short fuse.


What Color Best Represents Your Personality?
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O baby

You belong to the world of the self-destructive.
You belong in another of my worlds. The world of
self-destructive tendencies, either through
actual physical destructiveness or emotional
breakdowns that you keep bottled up inside,
thus hurting yourself. You feel that life is
nothing but pain, and you see red in everything
with the memories of the blood you have
bled(literally or figuratively) for your
hurting. You live in a hidden land that few
will ever understand or see in you, because you
keep it to yourself and only let a few rare
people into the truth of your reality. Er...I
don't condone my own actions, so I really don't
know what else to say. Of course, you could
also just REALLY like blood....or you might be
homicidal, not suicidal. ^_^;


Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES)
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AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
from solinari15



gweneth_syeira is poisonous! Induce vomitting if ingested.
N
POISON

Username:

From Go-Quiz.com

How true

from masteralida

HASH(0x8a8dd2c)
You're Brigitte Bardot!


What Classic Pin-Up Are You?
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More Quizzes...
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
magic
Your a Magical Angel!Out of all the angels, you are
the one most afflicted with magic. You can do
many enchantments as well as sorcery. You cant
do black magic, because even though your not so
"pure" your still an angel. A very
kind and curious one at that. Magical Angels
are always very easy-going with humans, but
intrestingly enough, like to expirement with
them with their spells.


What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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(no subject)
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Beatrix Kiddo (Black Mamba)




You're the Bride! Strong and determined, you can do anything once you set your mind to it. You long for vengeance and for a happy ending, and will do anything to achieve them.

Kill Bill: Which Deadly Viper Assassin Are You? (Vol. II spoilers... results with pics)


I just had to...
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira




Second time I took it, I was Batgirl.

KILL BILL!!!! YAY!!!
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
IT IS SOOOOOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL!! I LOVE QT!!!

hmm
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates anine
your best quality isyoure intelligent
your worst quality isyoure very wild
this is becauseyoure unique
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!


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Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates anine =)
your best quality isyoure a sweetheart
your worst quality isyour family pisses you off
this is becauseyou are who you are
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!


Hmm...she did chop off her father's head and tortured her aunt....

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AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
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(no subject)
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
magic
Your a Magical Angel!Out of all the angels, you are
the one most afflicted with magic. You can do
many enchantments as well as sorcery. You cant
do black magic, because even though your not so
"pure" your still an angel. A very
kind and curious one at that. Magical Angels
are always very easy-going with humans, but
intrestingly enough, like to expirement with
them with their spells.


What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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(no subject)
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
vampirewitch
Your scent is, Essence by Axe. Bold and unafraid.
You are willing to get whatever you want and
don't care what is required for you to get it.
However, you are only willing to do what you
want to do. In other words, if someone makes
you an offer you don't like you'll find a way
to get around them and get what you want ^-~.
Good job, I like you. Please rate ^-^


What scent are you?
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why do I hear vic crying out?
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Star Wars FOE Meme by kburne1
Name
You are a...Smuggler
You live onZoron
Force AbilityYes
The End --Got married and lived happily ever after
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

Yay...more! ^_^
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
DesireLove
Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't
been in much relationships or you need to work
on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
a daydream about the person you care about
most.

PLEASE RATE


What Do You Truly Desire? *PICS*
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tbc when I get back home. mwuahaha


Wow
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
fire heart
Heart of Fire


What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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hmm...
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
When I took it as a guy, then chic



What Pulp Fiction Character Are You? .



You're cautious, a bit paranoid. You left the scene for the suburban married life, but somehow, touble seems to follow you and piss on your mornings. You are quick to share your point of view, but have no problems with giving in to the requests of wives and wolves.




Take the What Pulp Fiction Character Are You? quiz.







What Pulp Fiction Character Are You? .



You're known for starting trouble. But you play it cool. Besides, no one can resist your sharp eyes and quick wit. *They* eat from the palm of your hand. Though you have weaknesses, which may have deadly consequences, you, are resurrected, as if the gods themselves breathed immortality into you.




Take the What Pulp Fiction Character Are You? quiz.



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AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Three quizzes today...ack. Someone save meee.

Not too far off, but they don't have me nailed yet..mwuahaaaaaa
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Introverted (I) 68.75% Extroverted (E) 31.25%
Imaginative (N) 55.56% Realistic (S) 44.44%
Intellectual (T) 61.29% Emotional (F) 38.71%
Easygoing (P) 50% Organized (J) 50%
Your type is: INTP
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AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Your Sexual Profile (you sexual deviant you...) by sparkledee
Name
Your Secret Kink ThingYou have a puke fetish.
Your Sexual StrengthYou are incredibly flexible..
Your Sexual WeaknessYou're terrified of penises.
Your Likely STDYou're clean!!
How Many Partners in Crime?None. haha. Poor you.
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!


Sad thing about this is…I am flexible!

(no subject)
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
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AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
The Ultimate LiveJournal Obsession Test
CategoryYour ScoreAverage LJer
Community Attachment6.45%
You have one or two loyal pals on LJ... But you probably have better things to do with your time.
22.52%
MemeSheepage21.05%
Only trendy when it's sufficiently entertaining
28.36%
Original Content12.9%
It's okay to talk. People won't bite. Trust us.
38.36%
Psychodrama Quotient2.41%
Warning: Can Flame When Necessary
17.16%
Attention Whoring9.09%
Low-key and lovin' it
20.65%

Eeeee!!! Dudes!!!
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
Yers truly is so awesome. She got inducted to the NHS. The whole shabang is happening on Monday night (so no aikido or jujitsu). So I gotta wear these ribbons till Monday...nurr. Then I gotta "dress up" on Monday night...and I got like nothing to wear...well...maybe I do...

It'd be kinda cool if my brother went and one of my sensais...buuuuttt they prolly gotta teach class...so...I'm really counting on my brother to be there...since I don't know anyone else, lol.

Annnnnddd. I got approval for Alg. II Honours. Woot woot. See, if the school didn't screw me on my French and German II classes, I would've have French/German III Honours NEXT year which would...equal...6 honour classes. Ahh. Well, actually...I might take Anatomy Honours, because of Aikido and my future plans for the military, and just for personal reasons.

So far here's what I have:

English III Hon
Chemistry I Hon
American History Hon
Alg 2 Hon
French 2
German 2

and I need a final class which is currently bouncing between Anatomy Hon, Astromony, and newspaper. Not to mention alternates. I might wanna take Psychics Honours...but I was thinking about Sociology and Sociology Psychology...but I'm not gonna be a therapist...

I guess I'll go with Anatomy as my last choice, then Astromony and newspaper as alternatives.

Mwuahahaaa...

So I'm really on cloud 9 today....the dumb idiot turns out to be smart...wow...

wtf
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
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As if no one knew I would get this...heh heh...
AMy Pond
gweneth_syeira
wolf
Your soul is bound to the Second Totem, Luna:
The Wolf
.

Luna appears as a pair of coral colored wolves.
She embodies empathy, nurturing, insight,
and warmth
. She is associated with the
color coral, the season of spring, and the
element of wind. Her downfall is pathos.

You are most compatible with Doves and Ravens.


Which Animal Spirit Totem Are You?
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